I am too confused...

There are things that you suppose you know but you really don't have any idea about, you never know things as they are. Sometimes I get an idea of how unsatisfied I can be, how how things would come crushing down and as I lift them again so they collapse, but each time something better than the previous comes and somethings just fade away and disappear. I will start writing my memories of the clinic and my patients life as I see and interpret them. I will start from today onwards. next will be my first day of hospital life...

Love is all around me...

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me
And so the feeling grows
Its written on the wind
Its everywhere I go, oh yes it is
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love you, I always will
My minds made up by the
Way that I feel
There's no beginning,
There will be no end
cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I kinda get to thinking
Of all the things you said, oh yes I did
You gave your promise to me and i
Gave mine to you
I need someone beside me
In everything I do, oh yes I do
You know I love you, I always will,
My minds made up by the
Way that I feel
There's no beginning,
There will be no end
cause on my love you can depend
Got to keep it moving
Oh its written in the wind
Oh everywhere I go, yeah, oh well
So if you really love me, love me, love me
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it
Come on and let it (come and let it show, baby)
Come on, come on, come on let it show baby
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it show, baby
Come on and let it show

It is strange how you suddenly fall in love

When your heart beats as if it will be torn away from your chest, your breathing increase, even your texture and skin changes, you can't eat anything, you can't do anything, you can't even concentrate, all love scenes make your body shiver, your brain continuously remains on that person, he is there, so near, might come closer if you let, but you just can't. Always 'maybe', always 'if not', you never let doubts away, and when you think about the obstacles between you, it kind of increases the pull, the tension and you are ashamed, there is nothing to be ashamed of but you are ashamed, and what will happen when he goes away? When will you be normal as you were? And why is it that you always want to cry. And be sorry for what you feel, and knowing that you shouldn't feel this way. When will come the time to forget, you wonder? When will he shift far away, how long will this pain last? That's why I hate loving someone. You are so timeless to come to me now, and so will be you departure, please do remember me, remember me good. because you are the only man I knew, asked nothing from me, no favors, no help and just asked me to be there, because you are the one I will come to whenever I need, because you are the one I really fear to lose for the first time, may be because I am not to you, what you are to me, and losing me is just like losing anybody, and it seems to me I love you because you don't love me... It is so strange how suddenly you made me fall in love with you this badly.

Vanessa Williams: Save The Best For Las

Sometimes the snow comes down in June.
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon.

I see the passion in your eyes, sometimes it's all a big surprise.
'Cause there was a time when all I did was wish,
you'd tell me this was love. It's not the way I'd hoped or how I planned,
but somehow, it's enough.

And now we're standing face to face. Isn't this world a crazy place.
Just when I thought a chance had past, you go and save the best for last.

All of the nights you came to me, when some silly girl had set you free.
You wondered how you'd make it through, I wondered what was wrong with you

'cause how could you give your love to someone else, and share your dreams
with me. Sometimes the very thing you're looking for, is the one thing
you can't see.

But now we're standing face to face. Isn't this world a crazy place.
Just when I thought a chance had past, you go and save the best for last.

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for, is the one thing
you can't see.
Sometimes the snow comes down in June.
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon.
Just when I thought a chance had past, you go and save the best for last.

You went and save the best for last.

"Here I Am"

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am,

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptiness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am,

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

Dark as a Dungeon

Come and listen you fellows, so young and so fine,
And seek not your fortune in the dark, dreary mines.
It will form as a habit and seep in your soul,
'Till the stream of your blood is as black as the coal.

It's dark as a dungeon and damp as the dew,
Where danger is double and pleasures are few,
Where the rain never falls and the sun never shines
It's dark as a dungeon way down in the mine.

It's a-many a man I have seen in my day,
Who lived just to labor his whole life away.
Like a fiend with his dope and a drunkard his wine,
A man will have lust for the lure of the mines.

I hope when I'm gone and the ages shall roll,
My body will blacken and turn into coal.
Then I'll look from the door of my heavenly home,
And pity the miner a-diggin' my bones.

The midnight, the morning, or the middle of day,
Is the same to the miner who labors away.
Where the demons of death often come by surprise,
One fall of the slate and you're buried alive.
Merle Travis

Time is passing by

I don't know how clever is it to post your thoughts and life to the internet, I believe they do no harm, as long as you are anonymous.

I am studying for my gynecology exam and its quite easy to handle. Exam is on Thursday and I am sure I will pass it easily. Then There will be just one more to go, neurology exam, And I will have a big party at home, I really need it, but won't last long, I will start working again, I will have to stay away from the nternet during this time, and I really don't want to. :(